Bonjour!! Hello friends!!
I am feeling a little low today. Don't have a clue whether anyone is a actually going through my write ups or not. Its a little discouraging. This is my first time and I don't get it , how's my blog publicised or where to check the likes , the only thing visible is comments and that to no comments.

I just write to share my feelings any increase in the page views made me feel like its a responsibility to deliver something to the people reading but now I feel no one's reading . I don't see any signs anymore... :( kinda depressed today !!

Nothing wrong in loving the wrong person...

Love for some is a painting on the canvas of sky ..... Love for me is a painting on the canvas of water!!!

Bonjour les amis!! Hello friends!!

Poets, writers, philosophers all have defined love in their own unique way but as it is for me I think love is much more than a simple word which can be defined. Its too vast to be described. Maybe I fall short of words when I begin to talk about love not because I have loved people but because I have been loved by people. 

So many ways to love, to be loved, to merely share it, to act like you love, true love for a lifetime,fake love for some time, love that eases, love that hurts, love that makes you smile, love that makes you cry, love that makes you love and love that makes you hate! It's all infinite. We begin to feel love even before we come into this world and open our eyes. A baby feels the love of his mother when still in the womb, he can feel the love of his dad curious to see him , take him in his arms kiss him. We get and give love when we open our eyes into this world. Holding our mothers fingers, clutching our dad's shirt, smiling at the ones who pick us up in their arms, sleeping on our mom's lullaby, touching the wrinkled faces of our grandparents with those tiny hands, while crying to be picked up by daddy and screaming to be sung and danced by mommy. All of this is our first love. We get older start loving our siblings, then friends, then relatives by adolescence a boy or a girl, after being adults our husband and wife and finally our children and the cycle goes on always.

It takes moments to fall in love, years to express it, a lifetime to paint it out and more than one life to forget about it. Yes, its not only a lovely feeling but also an experience full of pain. And if love would have been all about smiles , no baby would cry when he came out of her mothers body, no woman would undergo the pain of childbirth just to bring a life into the world. The joy of love is nothing as compared to the pain it makes us go through. 

There's no such compulsion to be loved in return but is inevitable to fall in love. We can't ask anyone to love us back but we can surely expect. We surrender completely to the one person we want to share our life with. Ignoring all the negatives we embrace his positives because we have faith that we would turn those negatives to positives some day. Who cares if they don't notice your love ,don't love you back loving them become a duty . 

But is this right?? Loving someone who doesn't notice your love!! 

All of us deserve to be loved in return . But if the one you love doesn't understand your feelings he or she isn't worth loving. If the person has it he will acknowledge your love but if there's no trace of mellowness in his heart he can never develop love for anyone in this life. As I mentioned earlier love is not something that can be forgotten. You have to move on in life. If the person doesn't love you , you wait , govd it a try but when you see he or she doesn't care you have to move on someday. Only after you take your time but keeping in mind that this isn't the end. There's always a chance to take a U-turn or start from the start. There'll be a day when someone will love you completely to complete you , turn over your flaws and love you the way you are. 

This doesn't mean you have to forget your first love you have to let him be in that unique place of your heart which you made for him but you have to share this heart with the one who loves you. Love can never be washed out nothing can wash it out only an understanding to turn that person into a sweet memory of your life can ease and cure your painful heart. There will come a day when you stop noticing this locked box of your first love . 

Friends never try to forget the one you love always remember you loved that person for a reason once you try hating him you start questioning your own feelings and thinking. Love is indeed a paimting on the water surface once it reflects on the surface no matter how many stones you throw no current could break it or wash it away with the wave. It remains floating forever. 

There isn't anything wrong in loving the wrong person!!!!

Assumptions...

Bonjour les amis!! Hello friends!!

Assumptions, a common yet a treacherous word. Nothing kills a man more harshly than his own assumptions. Its hard to say whether all of us usually make the bright assumptions but the word in itself is quite negative. Assuming anything and easily believing isn't anything very new or once in a while situation. We assume what preexists in our mind that's why we accept it so quickly.

There is a hidden box of negative, outrageous thoughts in some corner of our minds. Once anything hits its lock it's forced open. Then flows out a mixture of uncontrollable devil thoughts. If we step into a dark room we assume there's something wrong only because there isn't any light , if we step into a room excessively lit we again assume there's something wrong! We are so used to balanced thoughts that if anything is a little more or less than enough our mind is never ready to accept it.

These assumptions are the most dark , negative side of our personality! Its rare to see a woman say,"I think he loves me truly." But it isn't even near to rare to see a woman say,"I think he hates me." As a matter of fact I read this somewhere, 'tell a girl she's beautiful , she wouldn't believe you easily, tell a girl she's ugly , she would undoubtedly believe you for a lifetime!' 

These thoughts that wear the cloak of assumptions murder! They murder your sincerity, your intellect to deal with situations, your soft side,your trust on others and specially it kills the human in you. People go far to prove their doubts correct. They would do just anything to satisfy this hunger and once they think they were right their senses start to betray them. Not everything we see is the way it is supposed to be. Stars aren't as close as they seem to be. The distance is beyond imagination! There's a short story . 

There was this man who used to mentally harass his wife for dowry. His wife complaints to her father. She is advised to stay calm. One day this man returns home drunk he thrashes his wife in a devilish sort and when he gets tired he sleeps. The girl then called her father again. The next morning her father takes her back home. After a few days when the man realises his loneliness he goes to his in-laws place to take his wife with him. She refuses to go with him and he abuses her before her parents, he then mentions that he is not satisfied with his marriage because he thinks it didn't benefit him. 

His father in-law asks him to go on a walk together. Both of them head out towards the outskirts of the city after walking a lot when the man gets tired he asks the girl's father where were they going , soon he said , we would reach to a place where I purchased a piece of land for you but I would let you have that land as a dowry only for one condition. He said if you could take 15 rounds or even 10 rounds of the entire land it would be yours. The man agreed with greed in his eyes and all the overconfidence of the world.

Soon they reach to the land piece. From far away when the man looks at the ground he assumes that it was enough for him to take those many rounds. He steps into it and begins running. After 5 rounds he loomed like a donkey with load on his back. He slowly understands that the ground was too big to take 12 rounds but he keeps on running. At a point he forgets where he started from , how many rounds he had taken how many more he should take but he decides to keep running. Slowly his throat dries , the sun shines close he feels the stroke and falls down . 

The last memory of his open eyes were his wife running towards him his in-laws standing at a corner and him lying on the ground. He was saved and later he comes to know he ran more than he assumed he could . the land was larger than he assumed it was and her wife was far more loving as he assumed. 

Amongst all this there were lots of assumptions while mostly proved wrong,needless and of no worth. 

Its not by assuming that we reach the destiny its by making an effort. At the end if you don't get what you wanted you wouldn't regret that you didn't make an effort but you'd be happy that you didn't make fake assumptions and dreamt of winning the title. Just judging that a person is worth your love or hatred makes you the most worthless. 

Don't assume , believe instead!!

Faces...

Nobody could tell , how many faces he has!!

Bonjour les amis!! Hello friends!!

Another thought another experience and another post. Bike rides for me are the easiest ways to calm and freshen up . Its the festival of holi tomorrow. The festival of colours as celebrated in India . The markets are flooded with all the possible colours . Handmade hats decorated with gift wraps , ribbons etc. One could easily notice the reflection of pink,red,yellow,green in the tiny eyeballs of kids around yelling on top of their voices for their favourite playful items. I saved myself twice from the water balloon wars . All of this is just hilarious! Kids are on full gear. 

That's not all I saw . I saw adults preparing for the D-Day in advance. Crowds of men raising there hands pointing out to the counter of the wine shops trying to have their chance to grab a favourite brand. Saw women in the markets at the grocery stores , the vegetable stalls bargaining to save money and speeding up for their chance to get done with the shopping. 

A few common things they had - 

A hunger to achieve!! For kids convincing their parents by any means and getting their favourite stuff was an achievement. For men reaching the counter and finally carrying away the wine bottles home was an achievement. For women saving those tits and bits of money and shopping the requirements in a budget was an achievement. Oh God!! So much rush!! 

This rush was a part of everyone's day. For the vendors for the shopkeepers for the dads and moms for the kids and teenagers. Well, at the end everyone's gonna have a great time. 

Something really amazing and pleasing to notice was the families on the signals. They'd all had that contented smiles on their faces. No matter their lives were controlled by those traffic lights. Red means there's a chance and green says go away but today in their ruthered houses with no lights no facilities they had a full supply of energy and love and happiness. There children had those hats made out of papers, some colours which their parents saved for them, and most importantly a smile. They were happy enough to overlook what the other kids were dressed up like or how many pumps and toys their parents were buying them. They were just happy,happy enough to say happy!

These kids living on the traffic signals with their parents don't get a chance to go up to a stall and buy themselves a toy worth a fortune. They don't get choices all they get is a chance, a chance to find some waste products thrown by the people out of their cars. I have actually seen them picking things from the way and make toys out of wastes. Candy wrappers are an attractive piece for them. What's waste for one is useful for the other. 

Everyone has its own mask. Nobody's smile is gonna last forever , nobody's gonna be healthy or sick or rich or poor or beautiful or not so beautiful or alone forever. Things will change sooner or later. All we can do is enjoy the moment and live for it. People have their faces tired face, happy face, sick face , sexy face, loving face , hating face , fake face and all sorts but these faces keep changing or exchanging. What we can do is meet someone wear the same face live that moment and off you go .... FORWARD ! 

Let the world move and the time go on in circles...... Just sit by the river and watch them fishing!

Its all about loving yourself....

                                      Its all about loving yourself....

Bonjour les amis!! Hello friends!!

Was quiet a day today . The morning seemed so quick as if the sunrise was a surprise. Indeed the day was full of surprises , the bad ones though but things turned out well until the sunset.

Like usual people I don't really go philosophical with dawns and dusks! Its simple enough to understand. The stairs that take you up , bring you down, but coming down ain't a drawback! Later this afternoon I was feeling like there's nothing called confidence inside me.I felt like I was drowning in my own tears. Some mistakes, some spontaneous decisions caused me real harm. I thought I was sinking.

But there was some light too dim to notice. 

When we come to know that someone in the crowd really hates our existence we start questioning 'why'? Instead of doubting that person's disability to seek our worth , we actually begin to find our good selves. Well, that is not it! We also feel awful and at a particular point we have a life full of grudges. There's a real world around us full of haters I don't say good people don't exist but you don't meet angels everyday! Its hard to remember the good and the bad never flushes out.

So why not to just knock out the ones that hate you? Risk,yeah?? 

Here knock out means a little different. If we take a close look the fat lady could be pregnant. What I mean to say we need to focus deeply on the roots . if anyone hates you they surely have a reason. We genuinely try to act like monks saying the good will takeover the evil . Snap out of the fairly tale world there isn't anything positive about this. Each hater has a reason to hate you , what you need to do is to find a weak point of that hatred and hit the button hard. You need to just stop feeling pity about yourself and do what your hater hates the most about you.

What? Is it your smile that pins that heart? 

Keep that twinkling smile on your face. You don't need to prove anything to anyone. Just smile for your sake , have a little sympathy for the hater guy. Your success makes followers. We won't get anything by forgiving the evil doers if you want to show them the way to the church you've gotta step in the mud and act evil to kill the evil. That brings them down they will one day get tired of hating and learn to love themselves.

Noone necessarily has to love someone else to find their lovely side. Good or evil its all inside you. For once try to love yourself for the better things in you and scold yourself once in a while for the bad and mean thoughts that cross your mind. The dark sides we have is what we are born with. We are born with a different face with each passing year we notice the changes in our mind , soul and body. 

All we need to realise is that its never enough . loving and pleasing ourselves, scolding and hating ourselves, correcting our errors and rubbing our dark stones can make us a gem someday. 

So get up straight and count your positives you'll surely feel good about yourself undo the wrong and maybe you don't hate anyone in future and if you find a hating fan just remember to press the right button and the smoke would turn out to be a raining cloud.

A cloud with a silver lining !!!

Here I am......

My first post on my first blog turned about to be unsuccessful or maybe not so successful!!

Bonjour les amis !! Hello friends!!

Here I am writing down a few pages from my life's diary.I don't know what kinda person I am and I think I don't wanna discover that too but surely I want to share my life each event that comes up has already passed out or is going on. Simplifying I wanna share with y'all my past , present and future. I know some of you would read it and say , "why would she do that??" Or maybe , "who is interested, who has time??" But trust me all you wonderful readers out there you are here connected to the world with a click . 

Its a little complicated to explain but please give me a chance. While I was putting up my name there I thought let's write something impressive, attractive about myself but something twitched my mind and I said to myself,"there are a lot of success stories in the market,who doesn't know the divas who have build a name ,but why don't we share the stuff that didn't result well in life??" So friends let's talk about our stupidities, our mistakes .Get a coffee and let's laugh over the best mistakes of our lives! 

Let's celebrate our failures and proudly say that I tipped over and that made me stand stout!! 

A very good night to all . will write something new tomorrow!!! Love you all :)